Jennette McCurdy

In EW's exclusive first look at the episode, the former Nickelodeon star opens up about her complicated relationship with late mother Debra.

McCurdy will discuss her best-selling memoir [I'm Glad My Mom Died](https://ew.com/books/jennette-mccurdy-im-glad-my-mom-died-exclusive-excerpt/), which explores her complicated relationship with her late mother Debra and her career as a child actress on hit shows [iCarly](https://ew.com/creative-work/icarly/) and spin-off [Sam & Cat.](https://ew.com/creative-work/sam-cat/) In her memoir, McCurdy details becoming a child actress at her manipulative mother's behest, citing Debra's desires to make it in Hollywood herself. McCurdy quit acting in 2017, pursuing writing and directing instead. I knew that's what I needed to hear." "My therapist said to me one day, 'What if you don't have to work toward forgiveness?' and I wept. [Red Table Talk](https://ew.com/creative-work/red-table-talk/) returns on Wednesday, Sept.

iCarly” star Jennette McCurdy, 30, is sharing her truth on an upcoming episode of Jada Pinkett Smith's hit show “Red Table Talk.”

She would sob and clutch me intensely and say like, ‘I don’t want my baby to grow up.’ I knew me growing up would be us separating and I didn’t want that happening. I don’t want to grow up.’ I knew that my mom really wanted me to stay young. She said, “My mom taught me anorexia.

Jennette McCurdy went on 'Red Table Talk' to discuss her memoir, 'I'm Glad My Mom Died' as well as a shocking email her mom wrote during the midst of their ...

I thought it was an opportunity for my mom and me to be closer,” the actress confessed in her memoir. But now I'm at a place in my life that I never would have thought was possible. The incredible highlight was when she reading an email out loud that her late mother sent after seeing a photo of McCurdy on TMZ. She continues reading, “‘And to think you wasted it on that hideous ogre of a man. I told your brothers about you and they all said they disown you just like I do. I'm not going to lie, it was very hard to get here. She ends the email on a laughable moment for the Sam and Cat alum, asking McCurdy for money to replace a kitchen appliance. Send money for a new fridge; ours broke.’” ‘Add that to a list of things you are: liar, conniving, evil.’” [Jennette McCurdy](https://www.scarymommy.com/entertainment/ariana-grande-nickelodeon-jennette-mccurdy-sexualized-nickelodeon-dan-schneider)’s shocking new memoir I’m Glad My Mom Died is now a New York Times best seller, and it’s not just because of the grabbing title. She [Red Table Talk](https://people.com/movies/red-table-talk-clip-jennette-mccurdy-shares-email-from-abusive-mom-exclusive/) conversation, the iCarly star reads aloud: "‘I am so disappointed in you ...

Jennette McCurdy says she doesn't want kids "right now" during a Red Table Talk interview about her memoir, I'm Glad My Mom Died.

While McCurdy has no current plans to become a mother, she says the door is still "open" for a future with children of her own. I have two nieces that I adore, and I'm really happy to be an aunt." "But for now, you're good," Banfield Norris replies, to which McCurdy says, "Yes," before the clip cuts out. "Right now, I don't feel that I want [kids]," she says. ["Red Table Talk" interview on Facebook Watch](http://www.facebook.com/redtabletalk) at 9 a.m. "After having this experience, do you think you want to have children of your own?" [I'm Glad My Mom Died](https://www.popsugar.co.uk/entertainment/jennette-mccurdy-entertainment-industry-revelations-48914378)," in which she details the years of abuse, manipulation, and exploitation her mother inflicted on her as a child. [People shared an exclusive clip of its own](http://people.com/movies/red-table-talk-clip-jennette-mccurdy-shares-email-from-abusive-mom-exclusive/) where McCurdy reads a shocking email from her mother. I told your brothers about you and they all said they disown you just like I do. "'Thinking of you with his ding-dong inside of you makes me sick. The "RTT" host is referring to the emotional and sexual abuse McCurdy endured at the hands of her mother, which McCurdy also dives into in the upcoming "RTT" episode. "'I am so disappointed in you,'" her mother begins the letter.

During an interview with "Red Table Talk," Jennette McCurdy read aloud an email that her mom once sent her.

“I feel seen, and I hope you do too.” [abuse](https://www.sheknows.com/tags/abuse/) McCurdy’s mom inflicted on her. Thinking of you with his ding-dong inside of you makes me sick. She continued: “You look pudgier too. I saw the pictures on a website called TMZ. The author’s debut memoir, which quickly sold out on Amazon, Target, Walmart, and Barnes & Noble, is a candid look at growing up as a Nickelodeon child star and a painful recounting of her past.

On Red Table Talk Wednesday, Jennette McCurdy opens up about years of suffering in silence with her abusive mom Debbie, who died of cancer in 2013.

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The 30-year-old discussed her latest book, I'm Glad My Mom Died, during an upcoming appearance on Facebook's The Red Table Talk, hosted by Jada Pinkett Smith, ...

[Beat’](https://www.beateatingdisorders.org.uk/)s helpline is available 365 days a year on 0808 801 0677. “In therapy and in retrospect, recognising that as such obvious abuse, it’s unsettling.” They can be reached by phone on 845 838 2040 or their website [Terms of use,](https://www.independent.co.uk/service/user-policies-a6184151.html) [Cookie policy](https://www.independent.co.uk/service/cookie-policy-a6184186.html) and [Privacy notice.](https://www.independent.co.uk/service/privacy-policy-a6184181.html) “I told your brothers about you and they all said they disown you just like I do. “Thinking of you with his ding-dong inside of you makes me sick. Love, Mom — or should I say Deb since I am no longer your mother? “You look pudgier too. I saw the pictures on a website called TMZ. The 30-year-old discussed her latest book, I’m Glad My Mom Died, during an upcoming appearance on Facebook’s The Red Table Talk, hosted by Jada Pinkett Smith, Willow Smith and Adrienne Banfield-Norris. And to think you wasted it on that hideous ogre of a man. “I am so disappointed in you,” McCurdy began, reciting the message.

Jennette McCurdy opens up about her memoir, I'm Glad My Mom Died, and the strength she has gotten from surviving child stardom and abusive relationship with ...

“I wanted it to be entertaining and I wanted it to be funny. Like, I have to give them to somebody,” McCurdy said, laughing. But I do think it’s led to more strength of character.” I have good people around me and it just feels so much better than past iterations, past phases, of my life.” Each day she went into the studio, McCurdy said she made sure to wear comfortable clothes and brought various items of security with her including blankets and stuffed animals. So, by the time I chose to write about my personal life in a public-facing way, in a creative way, I did feel that I had done the personal work first," says McCurdy. Because of that, she said, it’s helping her level of functioning, feeling of safety and overall well being. “I never expected to connect with this many people and as deeply. Should I say, 'Hey, before you read the book, just so you know, you're in it,'" she said. “I’m Glad My Mom Died,” begins with McCurdy sitting bedside with her dying mother and offering words she hopes will rouse her mother from a coma or, if nothing more, offer comfort: “Mommy. And truly, I set out to write a good book,” McCurdy said. In the memoir, McCurdy writes that her success did nothing to ease a disturbingly dysfunctional home life.

Willow and Jada Pinkett Smith's 'Red Table Talk' is back. In the new series premiere, Jennette McCurdy shares how abuse has affected her relationships.

[Red Table Talk](https://redtabletalk.com/) interview in full, make sure to tune in on Wednesday, September 7 at 9 a.m. I wanted something that was bold and also something that I meant sincerely. And so I fell into unhealthy relationships where then I was supporting the other person and I really felt like that's what I bring to the table, and it has been a lot of work to unpack. I would never use a bold and attention-grabbing title if it weren't authentic. [Jordyn Woods's interview](https://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/a26590023/jordyn-woods-red-table-talk-recap/) post- [Tristan Thompson](https://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/celebs/a38659384/tristan-thompson-public-apology-khloe-kardashian-third-child-paternity/) cheating allegations, and [Olivia Jade](https://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/celebs/a35862847/what-did-olivia-jade-know-college-admissions-scandal/)'s tell-all, where she was described as “ [the epitome of white privilege](https://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/celebs/a34905819/olivia-jade-red-table-talk/)” by co-host Adrienne Banfield-Norris. And tomorrow, the Facebook Watch original series returns with a premiere episode featuring none other than [Jennette McCurdy](https://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/celebs/a40860895/jennette-mccurdy-on-working-with-ariana-grande/), who recently published her book [I'm Glad My Mom Died](https://www.amazon.com/dp/1982185821) and will join Adrienne, [Willow Smith](https://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/celebs/a38496054/willow-smith-net-worth/), and [Jada Pinkett Smith](https://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/celebs/a33297037/jada-pinkett-smith-will-smith-relationship-timeline/) to discuss it. They get the title, to put it simply...It was also a title that I knew I wanted early on. I would never do it if it were just coming from a flippant place. I'd be lying if I didn't say...like, there's still a part of me that's wired that way.” I learned to be really on the lookout for She answers in a chilling and honest manner that also manages to showcase just how far she's come on her own healing journey. A refresher: Jennette's mother died in 2013 from cancer—an experience she has openly expressed having mixed feelings about both IRL and in the memoir.

Jennette McCurdy's mother Debra wrote her a horrifying email, calling her an "ugly monster." The "iCarly" star read the email aloud on an episode of the ...

McCurdy concludes, "I told your brothers about you, and they all said they disown you, just like I do. McCurdy added, "What happened to my good little girl? Where did she go, and who is this monster who replaced her? Her mother allegedly saw photos online of the young Nickelodeon star with a man, and wrote, "I am so disappointed in you. It's clear you're EATING YOUR GUILT," McCurdy continues. You look pudgier, too.

In a clip from the Sept. 7 episode of Facebook Watch's Red Table Talk, Jennette McCurdy gets emotional while discussing her relationship with her mother.

[Willow Smith](https://www.eonline.com/news/willow_smith), [Adrienne Banfield Norris](https://www.eonline.com/news/1332267/jada-pinkett-smith-and-mom-adrienne-reflect-on-missing-nurturing-touch-in-their-relationship), the sixth season of Red Table Talk premieres Sept. Sign up for TV Scoop!](https://www.eonline.com/news/e_insider?source=article_cta&medium=tv) "I was still trying to find a way to make it all mean something because it had to, because it was her. [I'm Glad My Mom Died](https://www.eonline.com/news/1341466/jennette-mccurdy-shares-how-her-perspective-of-her-late-mom-has-changed-after-years-of-abuse), which detailed the years of physical and mental abuse Jennette allegedly suffered at the hands of her late mother, explained how she's been able to move on in this sneak peek of the Sept. "I was still trying to live for her," Jennette explained. "I worked toward forgiveness for a really long time," Jennette explained.

The 30-year-old actress, who is promoting her memoir I'm Glad My Mom Died, appears on the upcoming edition of Red Table Talk to speak about the problematic ...

[Red Table Talk](https://www.facebook.com/redtabletalk) airs Wednesdays on Facebook Watch at 9 a.m. The letter continued: 'Thinking of you with his ding-dong inside of you makes me sick. Where did she go and who is this monster that has replaced her? 'And to think you wasted it on that hideous ogre of a man. add that to a list of things you are: liar, conniving, evil.' The hosts of the Facebook series winced as McCurdy continued reading from the letter - which included a financial request on top of the insults.

Jennette sat down on Red Table Talk to discuss her book, I'm Glad My Mother Died, and revealed the shocking email her mother sent her after seeing a picture ...

[https://www.nspcc.org.uk/](https://www.nspcc.org.uk/) [https://childhelphotline.org/](https://childhelphotline.org/) I would still have my identity dictated by her." [https://www.childline.org.uk/](https://www.childline.org.uk/) I'm not saying it at all in a flippant way." gets me," as a shocked Willow Smith reacts by saying "Wow!" I told your brothers about you and they all said they disown you just like I do. Jennette continued: "'Thinking of you with his ding-dong inside of you makes me sick. [I'm Glad My Mom Died](/celeb/jennette-mccurdy-im-glad-my-mom-died-book-title/), back in August. It's clear you're eating your guilt.'" "'Dear 'Nette, I am so disappointed in you,'" Jennette starts. I saw you rubbing his disgusting hairy stomach.

Debra McCurdy reportedly called the Nickelodeon alum "a floozy" and "all used up."

"I thought it was an opportunity for my mom and me to be closer." "Wow." "I haven't binged or purged or restricted in years," she told People. "I told your brothers about you, and they all said they disown you, just like I do. Following her death, the singer began purging to cope. In the New York Times bestselling memoir, McCurdy detailed how her mother forced her into acting at age six. "Where did she go, and who is this monster who replaced her? You're an ugly monster now." "What happened to my good little girl?" I saw the pictures on a website called TMZ. I saw you rubbing his disgusting, hairy stomach." "Dear Nette, I am so disappointed in you.

iCarly star Jennette McCurdy has opened up about her abusive relationship with her mom on Red Table Talk, leaving Jada and Willow in shock.

“The P.S. “I told your brothers about you and they all said they disown you just like I do. “‘Thinking of you with his ding-dong inside of you makes me sick. Her mom wrote: “I am so disappointed in you. I saw the pictures on a website called TMZ. I extend my arms behind my head and rest them there in a gesture of pride. Nickelodeon is offering me $300,000 in hush money to not talk publicly about my experience on the show? “‘And to think you wasted it on that hideous ogre of a man. “I lean back against the headboard of my bed and cross my legs out in front of me. Particularly, she wasn’t allowed the same freedom to audition for other roles as those she worked with. And also cases where they did — they knew exactly what they were doing.” There were cases where people had the best intentions and maybe didn’t know what they were doing.

Jennette McCurdy has been as candid as can be about her past relationship with her abusive late mom, and shared a particularly disturbing email while ...

(As did Ariana Grande, though [in an admittedly less-than-positive light](https://www.cinemablend.com/television/nickelodeon-vet-jennette-mccurdy-candidly-explained-her-jealousy-of-co-star-ariana-grande-and-how-tom-hanks-played-into-it).) Jennette McCurdy confirmed there was a 14-year difference between their ages, and while she understands why her mom was disapproving of that fact, the former actress still did not condone the older woman's behavior, as she apparently sent many similarly conceived messages regarding her daughter's romantic interests. As it usually goes, emotions were all over the place as the conversations went on throughout the episode, with the mother and daughter hosts regularly shocked by the stories that McCurdy was sharing, some of which were read directly from the memoir’s text. [her negative experiences at Nickelodeon](https://www.cinemablend.com/television/2563739/why-icarly-star-jennette-mccurdy-is-ashamed-of-nickelodeon-past) and beyond, Jennette McCurdy stepped away from the world of acting around the year 2017, shifting to writing and directing short films in the ensuing years. The Sam & Cat star also read out a full email that Debbie McCurdy reportedly sent in August 2012, which started off as noted below (with certain words in all caps as they were displayed in the email’s text). And of all the disturbing stories that have come out of it so far, the iCarly vet shared a particularly vile email from Debbie that offers a nutshell-take on their splintered relationship.

The former Nickelodeon star opened up about her best-selling memoir, "I'm Glad My Mom Died," during an appearance on "Red Table Talk."

In crisis situations, NEDA offers 24/7 support — just text "NEDA" to 741741. This continued on the spin-off show " [Sam & Cat,](https://www.insider.com/jennette-mccurdy-ariana-grande-jealous-sam-and-cat-work-memoir-2022-8)" which costarred Ariana Grande as Cat Valentine. The actress wrote that she also experienced stages of binge eating and bulimia. ["iCarly" costar Miranda Cosgrove](https://www.insider.com/jennette-mccurdy-miranda-cosgrove-cried-icarly-last-day-friendship-memoir-2022-8) was one of the few people she confided in about her "food issues" and the actress was "very supportive" of her recovery. [six-season run](https://www.insider.com/where-are-they-now-icarly-stars-photos) of "iCarly" on [Nickelodeon](https://www.insider.com/jennette-mccurdy-nickelodeon-hush-money-offer-memoir-2022-8) between 2007 and 2012, McCurdy's character was often found eating food like fried chicken and desserts like Fat Cakes. - She said that it was "difficult" playing Sam on "iCarly" because of her real-life eating disorder.

Jennette McCurdy shared details of her upbringing and her last conversation with her late mother on Wednesday's episode of "Red Table Talk."

Toward the end of the sit-down interview, McCurdy shared the last conversation she had with her mother before she died. "I said, ‘Mommy, I’m so skinny right now,’ like the thing that I felt like was the most that I had to offer was my thinness. She said that she started hating being famous at 16, but "despised it" by the time she turned 21. "And I had my mom on that pedestal, and it was really detrimental to my mental health." "We usually just look away from each other and Scott distracts himself by drawing Pokémon on the fogged glass," McCurdy read from her memoir. McCurdy shared that their house had a rat and possum problem due to her mother’s hoarding habits.

Jennette McCurdy says her iCarly costar provided "a lot of comfort" during the breakdown of her relationship with her mother on a new episode of Red Table ...

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